Current mood:	same shit diffrent day!
Current music:	"ALL I WANTED" BY AVRIL LAVIGNE

it's been awhile
you know when you think mr. right is mr. right then u meat somone that u love more but can't break up with the other one. well thats what happen to me with Anthony james Treat, and marty lee beason jr, well i choiced Anthony, because he lives closer and he's sweeter and he really does love me, yeah i know what i did was wrong to Marty so i helped him out and meat him his new gf, she's just what he needs a sweet, kind hearted girl!! yeah i know, i really like Anthony alot, but i kind pissed him off today! yeah go me (sarcamem), i feel lost in this big world, we are getting married on sept 1st, dad doesn't agree with it well tuff shit. I will be 18 theres nothing he can do! anthony is stop smoking 4 me because he knows how much i hate it he promised on our love! so that means if i catch him smoking i know he doesn't really love me. which is fine because i know it's hard to quote smoking just like that. i really do like this one alot more then any!! i meat him on the somtime, it's been 11 days since i last wrote. been buzy i guess. i miss alot of my friends i don't have much girl friends anymore because i have deside not to have very many and alot of guy friends i onlky trust about 1 out of 20 of them. anthony lives at fort brag. he's in the army and i'm going into the army as soon as i lose 90 pounds i went to a recruter wenesday. he said all girls hast to be 149 pounds. guys can be 200 which is bull shit i found out the goverment is sexest!!! didn't shock me either. whats the point of being in school when u can't even get the grades u deserve, they just give u 70's if your fauiling even if your grades are lower that's bull shit i work hard to get all my A's why in the hell do they do that. JROTC still sucks like normal might be because i'm in charge of the suckiest company i tell them what to do and they don't lisen i wish that we could take there rank but ever since the new people we can't so that totally sucks!! it's like me and Anthony always says same shit diffrent day. i hate myself over alot of shit but after all said is done i find that i'm sweet,kind, and kinda shy.it's weird but that's who i am and what not there's alot of probelms in the world!! i'm now lising to "moonlight sonata" by beethoven. i feel sad, and depressed. Anthony's finly talking back to me!! yay lol, i gues he got lonely lol! *sighs* i have been stressed out more resently because of alot of things speically on my mind!! like love, if i should get married and what not!! just alot of things on my mind. marriage is a big step for even me!! Anthony says he wants to marrie me because:he says he loves me, that i'm the one for him, he never saw any point in livin till i met me, the reason he lives is to make sure i'm happy,as long as ur happy ill be happy, is what he said!!! heres the resen i told him:becase i love u, your personality, u make me feel like i don't need to hide myself, because you are smart, funny, cute even though u don't believe it, because your you what can i say i'm head over hills in love with u.end next! He calls me darlin all the time. and he says i'm perfect he's crazy. and he calls me beautful and sweet, and he likes the way i laugh! Laurens out with john today, sherry and katrinas mom and granmother came over to see them, dad is well being a pain in the butt about me getting married! well hafe to go anthonys talking my time and i need to pay attion to him! heres anthonys song! Rolling Stone - "U can't always get what u want, but if u try u might find u can get what u need" well cya love yeah all alot. oh 4 got to say i'm getting married in the mountains and he's going to wear a cowboy suilt i'm wearing a cowgurl dress, and it's just the way it is! well later love yeah bye
Amanda Archer/Treat